Caring, big hearted, love being a father, but have made poor choices, still love my 14/15 yr. old boys now, but they live with their mom and I am that "part time" dad. Not my wish in life.
Find joy in helping others and serving. Only two things that get me going in the morning: knowing that my Father in Heaven is looking after me and knowing that if we truly do endure to the end, we will be rewarded. My reward is seeing the smiles and laughter from my family and friends.
At 43, I have become very mellow and more understanding of other peoples short comings as well as my own. It's all a test and whether we succeed or fail is 100% up to us. No one can fix us or change us unless we allow them to do so. We are in control of our own destiny, and mine is to return back home.