Lol...uhh...i'm me! Is this wrong? I am a strange individual when i am at work, I'm the biggest nut. However when i get home i usually just end up reading scriptures. I can reason anything, find an angle most people don't see, and when i do get off my duff you are likely to find it difficult to keep up with me. I love my kids very much, and i firmly believe what my mother said about me. "you can do anything you put your mind to." because of this i have done my best to put my mind toward God and my kids. I hope one day to add wife to that. I got the aaronic priesthood on father's day, i received my patriarchal blessing August 7, and am working hard to keep the devil from tarrying in me so that i can go to the temple as often as i can.

my background is and isn't important. it is because it can help define me as a person pertaining to where i have been and where i am going, and it helps you to understand at least a small portion of what i am capable of and what God has done in my life. it is not important, because it is said and done, and doesn't define me as a child of God. However to help aid you in understanding the tip of this iceberg, i will provide some highlights of a general summary of my life, and if you have any questions please feel free to ask.

I was raised JW until i was 12 by a...mother whom i can not really find any adequate description for, alongside my brother and sister. I jumped from church to church, until i went into the military, where i found chapelins that cursed far too freely. i found a woman i loved, and when i left the military i came out here to be with her. I joined the church probably a couple of months before we got married. we attended long enough for my oldest to be named and blessed, and then became inactive. after my third daughter was born i lost my job, had to quit college because i couldn't afford it, and then had to go through a bunch of pain. From my wife secretly filing for divorce, and lying to me to get money to take the kids and disappear. Six months after she took them, and after the second order from the judge to produce the kids, we finally got the divorce under way and i got to see my kids again. Even though they didn't remember who i was.

I started using church as an excuse for keeping them here, until after the divorce was finalized and she tried for a second time to convince the judge to let her move the kids to Georgia. I tried reasoning, begging, and then finally striking a deal with God for my kids. I still attend church every sunday because of this deal. I have been working at Deseret Industries since september of last year, to pay for child support while i try to find something more permanent. I did have a girlfriend, but she was not of the church, didn't want to be, i had made an oath for my next marriage to be for eternity, and her and i decided to be good friends and thus we are. I don't get much of an opportunity to see my family in California, and i am grateful she helped me to go out there once. Because of my low finances i live my my ex-father-in-law's house rent free. I don't know why, but i do not make friends very easily. However from my kids reaction, and some of the compliments i have gotten at church i know i can't be that bad of a person. I have been enjoying the home teaching assignments i get, since i don't get out much otherwise (no point in going somewhere if you got nowhere to go). I also do enjoy what i feel when i do the work, since i stopped playing video games i have been doing a lot of reading, and i want to start putting it all into practice.

I am most impressionable in person, not so much in text or online. However i understand why most have fear concerning this, but at this stage i know that at best i can get a cordial conversation rather than a date. Anyway, that is me and yes i am better at writing than speaking. I started developing a relationship with God for my girls, and now i try to maintain it for them and me. I tried attending the FHE meetings for singles at the institute near UNLV, but felt like i was given the cold shoulder. So i have been going to the FHE meeting with the group that usually meets at the Tropicana chapel. They are more welcoming, even though i still kind of feel like an outcast. Perhaps that comes with being the first in your family to convert, or just from me being me.

If you made it this far congrats, and thank you for looking at me. I will probably check in from time to time, but whatever happens from here out I leave in the Lord's hands. May the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost be ever merciful to me, as they have been, until i go before the judgment bar of God.