Good Luck everyone -
I am a loving, sharing women and I know how to work hard, talk too much and my crazy shines through almost every day. But I think it is the fun kind of crazy and not the scary kind.
I workout when I can during the week but never want to until I am 10 mins in to it. And I am always happy after that I forced myself to do the work out. I am stronger today then I was a year ago and I plan on being stronger next year then I am today. My goal is to be in the best physical shape of my life by the time I am forty. I am well on my way, the hardest part of this has been the fact that I am not naturally coordinated. I can bike, swim, run/walk and other types of workouts but I am not really good at any of them and I don't think I will ever be anything more than just ok at doing them. It is just not a talent or strength for me. I participated in a triathlon sprint the last two years (swimming 300 meters, biking 11.5 miles and running a 5K). My goal was to finish which I did and even though I was third from last in the women’s category I thought I did great. I would have done it again this year but it was cancelled. I will never be one of the fastest and I will never win the race but I am OK with that.
Hopefully anyone that reaches out to me will be patient with me as I battle my own fears of opening up again and allowing others into my personal space and world. I have gotten very used to being independent and worry that I will not want to give that up even though I know I don't want to be alone forever. I know that to start with I am looking for friendship and not just jumping into a serious relationship.
I have two beautiful daughters ages 12 & 8. Although they usually live with me they are with their dad for the summer & they visit me every other weekend. For all of you out there that don't have your kids living with you I now see more than ever how much that sucks. And it is really hard to find a way to still be part of their lives every day and still give the other parent the space they might want.
But I am also learning to enjoy the time on my own when I don't have to be the mother.
My core beliefs are:
- a smile & a laugh are the first steps to beating a bad day
- you can only change yourself
- when the going gets hard - jump in and do your best
- never give up trying to be better
- love is a choice and should be unconditional
My testimony is stronger than ever. I go to church every Sunday and I like it. I am not perfect & I don't expect anyone else to be perfect. I do try to be a little better each day then I was the day before.
I love to laugh and enjoy being with someone that can see the fun that is all around us. Life is hard but that doesn't mean you can’t enjoy it and find happiness all around you. That whole ‘silver lining’ logic.