Right now I'm going through some trials and tribulations.I can't work watch tv.I pretty much just sit and listen.I couldn't talk for 3 months so its stil hard for me to communicate outside myhouse. One main reason is because of a sound heater. I used it to block the noise of dogs barking.figures out it bit me in the butt.so I just sit in my rom with no heater and a lot of progress has still happpened.another big reason is because I was stand ing still for long periods of time, if the birds chirped I would stand still. I thought I would reach a higher spiritual potential .all it did was put me on a plane.so know I'm workin on coming down.looking back I kno it was stupid I think that if u go full blast adoing everything u can at thre church u become to religous.its good to keep ur feet on ground and just have fun not all church. but u don't get there by standing still.I thought I would become a better person figures out its back before when this all started that even though I was smoking I was where I neeeded to be if that makes sense.but its helped me quit smoking.and for that I'm very blessed. But now I'm workon on getting back where I was. But even with my trials and tribulations I stll try to think of others any way I can.I've been out of the dating scene for awhile and with friends.just cause I can't build relationships.so I'm just waititng till I get better.
i havent done any street drugs in five years but i smoked ciggarrettes right after to keep me off drugs. but i didnt realize till recently that you have to quit everything in order for a drug u did prior to get out of your system.so my main goal is to get clean.