Dear Husband,

During the day I'm busy teaching and being a mom, but I think about you every night. There's a pillow where you should be. I wonder sometimes if you will ever be there beside me. Maybe we'll never find each other because of decisions I made years ago. Maybe it's too late. But the God I pray to each night on your behalf is bigger than my mistakes. He's the big g God who parted the Red Sea and brought the children of Israel through on dry ground. He's the One who saved Daniel in the lion's den. He's the One who brought the Jaredites across a raging ocean without sails, steam or engines of any kind. I think he can handle this.

I never wanted to look for you online, but I'm backing up my faith with action. I can't sit here in a town of 400 and expect Heavenly Father to bring you to my door. That's only going to happen if you are the UPS man, which I seriously doubt. Whether you are half way around the world or not doesn't matter to me. I want to be wherever you are.

I have a good life as it is. I have the best job in the district. I have friends that I have been close to for many years. I have an amazing child. But there is a void that only YOU can fill.

I know when we find each other it will just feel right. We will both be at peace. We will have found someone with whom we can be ourselves but someone for whom we want to be our best selves. Comfortable, but stretched...if that makes sense.

If you ask my family and friends they would say I have a quirky sense of humor and a deep testimony. I've also been told that men like my voice, whatever that means. I think you will like that I am loyal, sincere and comfortable in my own skin.

Things I'm looking for in an Eternal Best Friend: honesty, loyalty, integrity, testimony, chivalry.

I like happy endings, but I'm looking forward to a happy beginning and a friendship that never ends.

Love,

S