I love life!! I love to laugh and sing and dance. I don't hold grudges and I am quick to forgive and move on. No sense in crying or seeking who to blame when there is spilt milk......just mop up as best you can and then dance with a broom!! lol........not only silly but a lot of fun! The problems of spilt milk soon long forgotten! Life is too short to worry about mistakes or past regrets. I only seek to be a loving person and to do all that God intended me to do, so that I may be an instrument in his hands. God does not interfere with our agency. No one can or will or should be forced to heaven. It has to be a choice of the heart. A desire that we long for……more than the desire for the things of this world. God will bless us with the pure desires of our hearts…..whether good or evil……we will get what we desired in the end.
Divorce has been a painful and stretching experience. Never expected or saw this trial come. But I like Abraham “who against hope believed in hope” …….”He staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God; And being fully persuaded that, what [God] had promised, he was able also to perform.” Rom 4:18-22. I still believe in the fairytale ending. That an eternal marriage is possible. That all our losses will be made up and we shall receive double. Can I trust again? Can I remarry and not have a broken end? Yes!! With God all things are possible!! I still “against hope believe in hope” That is my faith.
My fairytale dream is a magical love. A love that is close and intimate and filled with passion. A love where we are each other’s best friend, companion, lover, counselor, and confidant. Where the romance never dies but the flames are kept burning. Winks across the room, tender kisses on the neck, hugs and a slow dance while we cook dinner together. Making every moment exciting and thrilling no matter how mundane or routine it may be. Just knowing each other’s thoughts and feelings by that certain look or familiar stare. Where we can almost finish each other’s sandwiches!! (yep…”Frozen” seen too much!…..hee hee) Sunshine and dewdrops, rainbows and hugs, flowers and laugher, sunsets and tears, holding hands in a moonlight stroll, gazing at the stars while we wonder and dream. I love to touch and feel and drink in every sensation and bask in the thrill of precious moments. To curl up close together and feel and hear each other’s heartbeat. A heartbeat that dances together with mine in perfect harmony and a rhythm divine, where it beats on forever into eternity. So that when we die we die hand in hand, walking together through the veil into heaven. Our love then becomes a more glorified continuation of the passionate love and intimacy we were able to achieve here on earth having been blessed with a more glorious and brilliant perfection!!! (Did I mention that I was a hopeless romantic?? I’m so hopeless……I’m pathetic eh?) With God as my wish granter it doesn’t hurt to dream BIG!!
I have a deep and abiding faith. I love the Lord and trust in him. God is my one true friend who is always there for me. I know the church is true. I am very spiritual and I have had some precious scared and spiritual moments where the veil was very thin. I believe that pure religion is a personal relationship with God. That you should never come between God and another person. That you can share your own relationship and teach, expound and persuade in hopes that others will want to develop their own personal experience and relationship with God. I love to go to the Temple and I love sharing the gospel with others.
So if you are a dreamer like me. If you still have faith and “against hope believe in hope” If you are persuaded that God is able to perform his promises. If you like and want the same dreams as me and want to extend that reach across the sky and inspire others with that style="font-weight:bold;")same joyful hope. Then give me a try! But Warning: It could be wonderful!! Only the brave of heart need apply!