I grew up on the west coast, and have always been the golden child. I am the oldest of five kids, and literally never did anything wrong. I wasn't always the smartest, something I am glad about, because it forced me to learn how to work for things things that matter most. I have grown to love history, literature, architecture, and philosophy. I have a natural gift with history, and it has been my love from the beginning. I love playing sports..
I have traveled the world. I have learned how it really works, but still believe that humans are good. It is that faith that helps me continue to do my job and fight the good fight. in addition, I hate bullies. I will lose multiple fights just to prove to ensure that a bully never conquerors. I have done hard things. I experienced death, pain, and loss.
While I prefer to say that I am principled, I know that I am stubborn. However, for me, there are things that are inflexible. It isn't that I live in a black and white world, it is just that I have made promises to people, and I will never break a promise. That is important to me. It sounds cliche, but honor and integrity mean something to me, and I demand it from those close to me.
I am naturally shy, but have had to learn how to converse and discuss anything. Among the super powers I have, people tell me everything. I have the power to engender trust, without raising suspicion. Partly it comes from the fact that I do genuinely care about the people around me. But partly because I take immense joy in learning about the world and people. I love moments, however rare, when two people can converse without defense or pause, when it is natural.
Oh, how I have searched for love! I suppose that my early exploration of poetry and movies provided me with an unfair expectation of what love was. For me, I always saw it as the chivalrous! As a result, I have attracted those who need to be cared for, held and fixed. The problem has come and I have fixed and cared, nothing or anything was ever reciprocated. I blame myself, I know better, and I learn my lessons, but as you likely know, habits die hard, and I sort of feel like my life has meaning when I am in a relationship that has meaning for someone. There is more to say, but that part is the difficult for me to discuss.